:'(

Now that its two more days till im gone,, i can feel how much im going to miss everything and everyone in this place :(
I dont feel excited anymore,, but i should shouldn't I? I mean its college, possibly the funnest times in our youth! Idk ,, i dnt really know what to expect...

Funniest. Commercial. EVER!

Final Countdown

Yes, three more days till im gone.. BUt somehow its weird that i dont feel sad.. Idk
Yea i was upset yesterday with my friend,, but i cn still forgave her and all.. So don't take the letter as a I-wish-youre-dead letter. its not,, its a reality check but anywho i didn't write any names so it could be just anyone..


Idk why im not sad, im not excited,, i guess i stopped feeling those because the last few weeks i used up all those feelings and now when its like the last few days before i go, i feel neutral. u get what i mean? Anyway im going to the doctors now to see my TB test results then im off to a friends house.

OH BTW,, the pope sez its ok to use condoms now,, i didn't even know that birth control a sin!

A Letter To A "Friend" (part 2)

A long time ago i made a letter to a friend and this is part two,, its still the same "friend".. Here we go:


I thought you were better,, i thought that with a man in your life,, you will act more mature and more considerate to your other friends (coz apparently there are more victims) but i guess not.. I can't say how much you hurt me,, telling horrid stories about me to your friends and even to my associates that make me sound like a bitch,, those stories weren't meant to be to be spread like wildfire,, those stories i told you long ago was a SECRET,, a secret on which i thought you were capable enough to keep. And i was wrong,, you just have to tell em to people and for what? im sure that hurting me was not enough,, you used those stories to get attention from your friends didn't u? Oh yeahh,, those times when you talked about your school friend who you thought was a horr,, well guess what? Surprise! I know her now,, and she told me how you hurt her also,, you were just exaggerating stories like the way you exaggerate mine.. Hey,, we're teenagers,, we do stupid stuff and tell some trustable friends what we did,, we didn't tell them so we sound cool, we tell them because we felt sometimes guilty and needed to get the burden out of our chest.. Get it? I made a mistake telling you everything.. Oh yeah,, and sometimes the way you always need to compete with friends on how many guys are falling head over heels for you? Yeah.. i kno,, u can deny that but deep inside its true now isn't it? Also the way u backstab our friend, OUR FRIEND was just uncall for,, she didn't do anything wrong to u and she's the one who keeps reminding me afterall ure our friend,, but that was just LOW, backstabbing her to her own friend,, (wow reminds me too much about my bro story).. BTW i know hoe proud u r to have a bf now,, but a people in relationship sould be mature,, and the times u sed u love him i doubt u have real deep feelings,, coz reality check,, people in relationships dnt say i love u the split seccond theyre together.. Oh and about the guy "that keeps texting u n annoys u" ,, yeah here's a suggestion STOP ACKNOWLEDGING HIM.. geez

But anyway,, im sure u could change,, inside u there's a good person but its being hidden by ur bad side.. I just hope u could change, i dnt hate u,, u made me mad a lot but i wont give up on u.. Please change ur bad behavior coz believe me when i say this u had hurt a lot of people and idk if u realized it,, and at the end it might hurt u too. So please, STOP

Snap

Yes new header! About time!! haha i really like it even though it was actualy not that hard to make,, :) proud of my amateur illustrator sill :D

Well, 5 more days till im moving :(( Its both a sad and happy thing,, i mean im really excited for college and all the experience,, but then again im leaving my close friends and family,, so its bitter sweet,, but everyone has to face them.. And im sure ill do fine :) gotta be confident

A few things:
- i did my TB test, it hurt a bit but i didn't say a word.. :D it usually took me forever to be put in a situation where a needle would be,, but this time its different!! :D
- The maths i have to study for my placement test,, nada,, as in i know NADA anything about it! ughrrrr
- I don't have to take flu shots woohoo!!!

Anyway,, i hope u guys had a good week,, coz after this week, mine wont be the same again

meh

i got bored,, this is for my twitter avatar.. lol

The story of...

Sorry boys but you have to admit that Walt Disney has a way to make an experience of bleeding from your vagina (or vajayjay as my friend would call it) into something beautiful lol

Actually some of the tips they said was actually very helpful!

Birthday

good charlotte "like it's her birthday" from benji madden on Vimeo.

Ok first of all, I love this band with all my heart,, but what i just watched was a bit different than the other videos they did,, well i don't know,, sometimes i get a feeling that this band has a tendency to follow whichever was hot in the music scene lately ,, sometimes the word "unoriginal" and "inconsistent" comes to mind, and that was my honest comment. And this video helped it,, well in their case i can see how hard it is to survive in the music scene after being in it for more than a decade,, i mean music change a lot. But, i just wished they could also bring their old self to,, you know be themselves.. I know they're currently friends with people from bands like ATL, and those kinda bands,, which kinda influence them,, but i can totally see a pattern,, when they were in the second album they were hanging out with Simple Plan, third album started hanging out with MCR, fourth hanging out with Avenge which explains the dark outfits (which i still hate and happy that they're staring to fade) so yeahh,, ive been listening to these guys since i was 8, so i still love them to bits,, but theyve changed,, and it might take a while for me to get used to it,,,


BTW the songs ARE quite catchy, but a bit diff thats all

Clever

Very clever :P

Very annoying thing happened today, today was supposed to be the day I'm getting my student visa to USA, so in the morning I went to the embassy, ready and prepared with all the documents and forms,, the line was really short and there was not a lot of people came,, so it was a good day to get a VISA when i came in the first problem pops out, my type of form are unusable since this May and NOBODY TOLD US. So we went to Sabang road and searched for an internet cafe and asked the dude for the new form, the guy helped us and fill our form for about an hour! I typed faster than he does -.- anyway, the last step was to upload my picture,, but the link is broken and even after million of tries, it still failed, but the guy sed that without the picture was acceptable anyway. When the guy want to preview and print the form, the website wouldn't allow us, So yeah, a string of craptastic events, so now we postponed our date to tomorrow, hopefully nothing happens tomorrow (amen)

But the good news is I got my driver's license :D :D :D and today was my first drive without parents! Just my driver, and i did good! noone even noticed i was an amateur :D :D

So at the end, it was an ok day

FUCKING AMAZING!

Oh Ozzy, can't agree to you more "HE's FUCKING AMAZINGG!!"
Imagine a 7 year old with that much talent? ANd lucky him for being able to play with his fave rocker!

TB

OH My GOSH

I just found out that I need to take a TB test before leaving to college, At first i freaked out like ahhh needle! But i calmed down a bit remembering when i got dengue fever and i have to get blood test almost daily, and it didn't really hurt, then i see videos on youtube about people getting it, it barely goes in, just the skin part, which made me feel better coz in the commernts people sed it barely feels like anything..

Like this video:



Yupp,, oh plus. My mum made me take FLU SHOTS! before leaving,, which is uncall for.. But im getting it at the kids place where they provide "baby" needles instead of the usual long ones.. Which brings me to this, isn't it better to just replace all needles to tiny needles? Is there even a difference?

Hope

Cute stories about kids, just a lil something to smile about,

Yesterday, my boyfriend and I went on the ferris wheel at a festival, and my boyfriend is terrified of heights.

We were sharing a carriage with a father and daughter. The little girl held my boyfriend's hand the whole way, assuring him that nothing bad would happen.

Her fearlessness GMH.

I have an autistic little brother.

One day, we were walking down the street when he saw a little girl. The little girl was sobbing because she fell off her bike and scraped her knee.

Without a word, my little brother walked up to her, kissed her cheek, and hugged her.

Innocent Kids GMH.

My nephew and I was participating in a walk for Juvenile Diabetes.

Halfway through the walk, the members handed out bananas and water.

As I was grabbing my water, I turned to see my nephew hand his banana to a homeless woman.

I'm so proud of him. He GMH.

I was coming out of a store when a woman called me a bad name.

My 4 yr old son walked up to her and asked for a hug. She looked taken aback and asked him why.

He said " my mama says to love those who hurt us because they're hurting too." He hugged her leg and walked back to me.

My little boy GMH

Adorable kids made my day :))

I got my own share of adorable story starring my mum's ex teacher's daughter. Here it goes:

Her brother goes to my school which means everyday i have to drop him to my mum's school. On the first day I dropped him off his 4 year old sister ran to us and gave me a big hug. It came to a surprise to me coz i barely knew her, it became an everyday thing. On the day before they move back to their hometown in LA, she came to me, gave me the biggest hug, bat her gorgeous blue eyes and kiss me on the cheek. Then she put a fish sticker on my hand and said it was a present for me. When she left my mum's assistant told me she thought of me as a big sister. My heart just melt. I miss you Haylie <3

PS. The fish sticker still sticks on my working desk, and soon I will bring it to SF with me.

Pelvic Thrust

Glee just released their new songs for the rocky horror special!! Love the time warp! So energizing and just plain great! People should really consider the original too though, its great!



COMPARE

Sweet

Congratulations to Paul Thomas and Maya Rudolph on their gorgeous baby girl!!

Adorable!! And I didn't even know they were expecting! Total surprised when i saw the tweet from Billy saying theyre gonna visit "Paul's bundle of joy" My jaw dropped.

Baby Willow was born on 5th Oct 2010, at 8:08 Pm weighing a healthy 6.6 pounds.

:D So happy for them!!!

Chinatown

Double post..


Ok love the song and all but errr what??

This Century

FINALY! Im going to talk about music! Yayy,,

well ive been roaming around youtube finding good music and then this band hits me..

THIS CENTURY!!

They are really good! currently on tour with Hey monday, the ready set, n others.. Reminds me like The Maine, ATL, Rocket Summer, The Summer Set and those kinda bands.. Just a good pop punk band very enjoyable during a long drive in a car.

My fave tracks:

Hopefully romantic

To Love and Back

No way out

Drooling over the tracks now!

Updates of my life: My earphones broken!! Grrr, the usual white ones they give free with the ipod >:-( I can't live without music so now im using my lil sis' and the sound quality's crap :(

I just came back from my old school actually, went to visit and help them with their UN day, which at the end of the day their presentation got cancelled, so i helped them decorate instead.

Had fun with it too and i really miss school and ill be missing it more when i leave next month

:( :( :( :( :(

Three

Cool article taken from OMG facts.

A couple’s three children were born on 8/8/08, 9/9/09, and 10/10/10.

Chad and Barbie Soper of Rockford, MI somehow managed this seemingly impossible feat! Their daughter Chloe was born on August 8th, 2008, son Cameron on September 9, 2009, and younger daughter Caerra just recently on October 10th, 2010.

When asked if they would try for 11/11/11, Mrs. Soper responded, “Definitely no. We wanted three and I’m glad we have that.

A news story about the Sopers, as well as a picture of their family here.

AAU

Its probably safe to say that I am going to AAU now, well im not accepted but i am that close, all i need to do is join IELTS, get a good score and Ill be accepted. AAU is probably one of the most famous art school in the world. You can always see the red flag everywhere in San Fransisco and to be honest Im quite proud if i made it there. So wish me luck and hopefully I'll be accepted.

PRIMARY GOALS:

- Pass IELTS with great scores (or at least a 7)

- Learn how to drive

- Get better in Illustrator and Photoshop

Oh yeah i forgot to mention that now i m quite familiar to illustrator. Its not that hard afterall :))

Oh Don!

Really?

"Sue avoids red nail polish because it'll draw attention to her chubby hands!"

The Meaning Of WIN

Um awesome? Imagine waking up in the morning in THAT view. I wonder if they would built these kinds of houses in the future when all the earth is covered with water? Hmmm...

Courtesy of this awesome website.

The old the new

If you had a chance to live in an era which would it be?

For me i am really interested in the past era, you know the 40s and 50s ,,

Have you ever seen a commercial that came from those eras? Did you see how the commercial made it seem like they live a simple sensible life? well it turns out life is more complicated those times, despite facing wars and things, they fought money problems too. And also i learned commercials then could lie a lot too and people would actually buy it.

I love vintage things, i always found treasures in my grandparents house that's older than 100 years old. Including a ming china vase, porcelain dolls, old cameras, albums, books, even a handcuff.

As a bonus, here's an list from a hoe econs book telling girls then (1950s) how to prepare marriage life:

1. Have dinner ready: Plan ahead, even the night before, to have a delicious meal on time.

This is a way of letting him know that you have been thinking about him, and are concerned about his needs. Most men are hungry when they come home and the prospects of a good meal are part of the warm welcome needed.

2. Prepare yourself: Take 15 minutes to rest so you will be refreshed when he arrives. Touch up your make-up, put a ribbon in your hair and be fresh looking.
He has just been with a lot of work- weary people. Be a little gay and a little more interesting. His boring day may need a lift.

3. Clear away the clutter. Make one last trip through the main part of the house just before your husband arrives, gathering up school books, toys, paper, etc. Then run a dust cloth over the tables.
Your husband will feel he has reached a haven of rest and order, and it will give you a lift, too.

4. Prepare the children: Take a few minutes to wash the children's hands and faces if they are small, comb their hair, and if necessary, change their clothes.
They are little treasures and he would like to see them playing the part.

5. Minimize the noise: At the time of his arrival, eliminate all noise of washer, dryer, dishwasher or vacuum. Try to encourage the children to be quiet.
Be happy to see him. Greet him with a warm smile and be glad to see him.

6. Things to avoid: Don't greet him with problems or complaints. Don't complain if he's late for dinner.
Count this as minor compared with what he might have gone through that day.

7. Make him comfortable: Have him lean back in a comfortable chair or suggest he lie down in the bedroom. Have a cool or warm drink ready for him. Arrange his pillow and offer to take off his shoes.
Speak in a low, soft, soothing and pleasant voice. Allow him to relax and unwind.

8. Listen to him: You may have a dozen things to tell him, but the moment of his arrival is not the time. Let him talk first.

9. Make the evening his: Never complain if he does not take you out to dinner or to other places of entertainment; instead, try to understand his world of strain and pressure, his need to be home and relax.

10. The goal: Try to make your home a place of peace and order where your husband can relax.

Pip

Hello people who are currently reading this, this post is all about swearing.

Tell me honestly , how many times a day do you swear? 2? 3? 10?

To be honest im kinda a fan of swearing, but dont call me a brute yet. I only swear in special situations, as in

*hit my foot with the chair*
me: Awwww f*ck!

*win a million dollars*

me: holly sh*t

yea those special moments,, so im not one of those people who swears on every sentence they say. But i also use them as an exaggeration ,, example : "that is f*cking hillarious!" See the difference with "that is hillarious!" Totaly different.

Another reason i swear sometimes is sometimes its stress relieving, you jsut need to shout that "bad" word coz it somehow makes me feel good and relieved after saying the forbidden words.

Try it now! Scream it to the screen!

FFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK

Doesn't that feel better?

Sad :(

Being a Catholic its pretty confusing in these times, where people are starting to question the bible about the homosexuality. Me as a person prefer not to question it, i have a few friends who are gay/bi and i dont mind hanging out with them. They are pretty awesome people. So idk. its a confusing topic.

I am a straight person btw, and this story really was heartbreaking, along with the rest of the gay suicide strings.. Our prayers go to the victims families and close ones :(

Dum dum dummm

Ok, so one of the school from Aussie has already given me the green light to go to their school, but just to make sure they wanted me to try my best to give them a digital portfolio, as in photoshop, illustrator, etc...

I have NO idea how to work with em, but thankfully i went to lessons giving me basic stuff, so i made one five minutes ago using illustrator AND photoshop. Dont judge it, im a beginner!

Hahahaha yeah,, its a sun! ooh, and as we speak i m in the process of sending it to the school, so we'll see! Oh heres a bonus,, lol

Its my stupid painting on a frame on a wall. Haha unoriginal, i was trying to learn on drop shadow but i cant find any tutorials that match so i painted the shadow, :P lol

Awesome

This is beyond awesome!

Spotlight

I think im gonna have a new segment thing here,, ill call it Artist Spotlight, (yeah, not reallygood)

Its a place where ill feature a artists here and show their wonderful art, Could be new, could be old. But they all have a similarity, they are all awesome!

K, since this is the first i think i should feature my old time face artist.

HENRI MATISSE

Ive always loved him ever since i got a group project about him at school when i was 12. His way of painting is very interesting and unique in his times where all people paint are realism.. His paintings are called "fauvism". People thought he was weird for being different, but he became one of the leading figures of modern art and also my all time favorite painter.

His paintings are mostly blurry, but still clear enough to see the picture. When he draws people or sometimes landscapes, he usually paints it unrealistically and weird shapes which he did on purpose, and he uses vibrant and bright colors which always catch your eyes.

LOV3

You know you're in love when you can't fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams

-Dr. Seuss

:(

So i went to school yesterday hoping that my cuz bring my rice krispies treat,, but

He didnt :( and he sed the treats that was supposed to be for me was ruined :((

So now i got nothing,, oh except a small bar of milky way :(

Better than nothing rite?

Chalk

The most awesome chalk art ive ever seen!

all pictures courtesy of photobucket.com

I would feel blessed if i get HALF of the artist' unique and amazing talent.

XOXO

Hello friends, short post about my new obsession. And yes this might surprise you.

Yup, you guessed it. And i do have an explanation, its just a great show that you can't help but watch. I just started on monday, and already ive finished the whole first season, now im on season 2 :P

Strangely my favorite character is Chuck, he reminds me of a boy i used to know, all that charm hiding behind his status. Love him

Ok , thats all i need to tell you know. But recent updates, OST of 500 Days of Summer: GREATNESS

Untill then,

yay

Look what my friend brought me from PARIS??

I know. A weird thing to be brought from there but the story was we were talking bout snacks and i brought this up, and i never shut up about it since.

So happy he bought it ^^ but it still with my cuz,, cant wait to have it!

Fresh

Hello you might notice my new template, yes i was thinking of a fresher look for this blog. Hope itll cheer you up somehow.

Like how i feel when i see a picture like this.

Awww and colorful.

Flo?

Funniest thing happened a few days ago, I was having lunch with my mum and i noticed a big (not to be racist but itll explain) black guy carrying a camera and taking pictures of the mall. I was staring thinking "ah tourist" but then i started to notice he was with five other guys whom all was wearing white shirts. I thought it was funny like how chinese tourist wear cheesy shirts when they go on tour, but then two local guys wearing a JAVA EVENT??? shirt was with them tourguiding them, then i started to notice. OH SHIT!!! FLO RIDA????? And that was the story of how i missed my opportunity for a picture.

Ok the past few days my mums been pressuring me bout school and its exhausting! idk all the schools i applied seems to be giving me the green light and also all of them are great schools. Its so confusing!!

Its either:

-swinburne (big uni, big opportunities)

-billy blue (original pick, famous)

-Academy of Art (most famous in SF)

Each school has its benefits... and all need my pick ASAP.

Teachers Teach?

Guess what? yes i guess i am in the mood to blog. Anyway this blog is dedicated to a special teacher i used to have, and its quite a funny story too ^^

When i was in primary school I went to a local school here, and because of that we usually learn basic stuff in english.

Example: "Write one sentence using the word has!"

"Answer: He has a ball."

Yeah those kinda things, since me and basically majority of the class spoke English on a regular basis, its not a big of a problem, until one day our old english teacher ms. something, brought her boyfriend to school and told our class that he's gonna be teaching us, and that we should all be kind to him. The guy was an ass. He thinks that us kids were idiots and dont know anything about English, once he start teaching and demonstrating, we started to notice his English was shit. One of my friend started to say "Sir, you know that was wrong?" but his girlfriend who watching us like a hawk shush her sharply and ordered her to shut up. Then she smiled and signed her guy to continue.

This continued till we all graduated primary. And the poor kids of my class who can't speak a single word of english had to tolerate the crappy grammar our teacher gave to us.

Well ok, he wasn't that mean to us, he can be nice but mostly hes just obnoxious. And no i wont give any names. :P

Hola

Hola! I am back, right now i am still a high school dropout looking for things to do till January, and i got more news, my mums interested to applying me in *drumroll please* San Fransisco Academy of Art!!!

Its a really famous art school in SF. The surprising thing was its quite easy to be accepted :-/ I knoww.. .kind of questioning their standards here, but they got a reason, in a way they are confident they can turn any fool to the most amazing artist in the world! yea i might over exaggerated,, but you get what I mean.

Anyway, one of the things that i might do during this gap:

-photoshop lessons

-photography lessons

One thing i have NO clue about either of em, but i have to learn soon coz i need it in the future. Anyway now that im particularly jobless i guess you could say i might blog more. When im in the mood.

Monkeys

Hello! Sorry ive been ditching AGAIN! But you can't blame me, Im busy, Im going to go to college soon. And by soon i mean Febuary, but ill be moving to Sidney on Jan. Yes BIG change, in fact HUGEASS change. I still can't face the fact by around 4 months, ill be living by myself.. Shitt..

Now i dont go to school anymore, im doing lessons and interships. Which is OK i guess, at least theres no boring subjects to learn :P

Im gonna go to Bali soon (around 2 more hours) and thought that maybe I should actually update this...

Ive been visiting this website! And i think the works are awesome!

Go visit ---- http://onlycreative.com.au/

These are all graphic designers from Australia ( i think)

Ok i gotta go the constructions next door is such a pain in the ass,,, thank goodness ill be leaving for a week so they can make all the noises they want! Just make sure theyll be done when im back!

Too late for apoligize?

Hey, its been a while. I am very very sorry and i guess i have a good reason too.. for this post I am going to somehow write a letters to the people that i had affected even though they can't read it... Ok here it goes..


Hey, i know that ive been acting a bit strange and odd. Im sorry. I know ive been quite moody and "emo" (still hate that word). Im sorry. How do I start this? I guess ever since the start of who knows when I m a negative person. I can't help it, ive always been pessimistic and view things as the worst case scenario. Because of this, making friends was kinda a challenge to me ever since i was young. Ive never approached people, nope never, thankfully my old friends from my previous school were kind and it worked out very well. However in this new committee, im stuck. So i guess i kinda felt mad and disspointed whenever I feel a bit left out, be patient. Yes that is some reasons why I keep doing it everyday, i cant help it. U guys made it seem like im not even there which hurt me coz i know some of you for a few years. Thankfully i still have trustworthy friends, but i still doubt them. Im sorry for beings suspicious of u guys, im just scared of losing the only people that i could trust. I guess ever since the grade 7 drama palooza ive been traumatized and i guess u could say, would do anything to please people, and it made me the person i m not actually am. I watch every word that came out of my mouth, hopefully i wont offend people, because you wont know who would be the prey and who would be the hunter next. This year i know its different. We grew up and mature, but my thinking hasnt in this term, i still think that somehow u guys still have the same personalities as the people in year 7. It was a tormetting year for me , the quiet one. The one always stuck to the person who was left behind. It hurt me too much the insults those boys made, it made me cry and made me feel disgusted at myself whenever i looked in the mirror. now ive changed, and im sorry. Im sorry boys for still doubting wether to forgive you. But now focusing back, im sorry for the people around me now for making you uncomfortable with my uncontrolable emotions, im sorry my close friends for acting controlling and blaming you sometimes, and im sorry for taking a lot time to realize this.

TIn Man

I made this composition for English, it's supposed to be an intro of a novel entitled "The Soldier's Story"

Violence is never really my thing, it really isn’t. As a young boy I would shut my eyes during action movies so that I could prevent looking at all those blood and flesh. Even during a Tom And Jerry cartoon, i flinched at an image of Tom’s face being hit by a pan or a steel safe falling of roofs and right on top of him. In reality Tom will either be dead or paralyzed for life. Violence is never my thing. So why on earth did I end up in a situation like this? I watched as my best friend gasping for air, his whole body painted in crimson blood, and I am 100 percent sure that his leg has fallen off somewhere during his desperate attempt to escape. I kneeled next to Nick, his blood trickling to my thigh, gross. Tears roll down his face as I tried to wipe mud and blood from his face. He gasped and sputter, he took a deep breath and he spoke the words which I would never forget
“God damn it Shaun, run!” I didn’t know what to do so I just did what he told me to, I ran. I ran like I had never ran before.

15 years earlier

My face fell splat on the hard pavement as i held back tears. I failed and i started crying like a girl.
“Faggot!” Francis yelled at my ear and spat on me. His followers must had thought it was smart so they copied him. They left me on the ground, even the teacher didn’t care. At least the teacher still had a heart to call my parents. My mum called out to me softly, I didn’t realize I was still stuck to the same position for two hours already.
“Honey, are you okay?” My mother asked softly. I mumbled. I can’t really speak. My lips are bleeding and swollen. My mother picked me up slowly, and put me on her thighs as she took out her handkerchief and cleaned up all my blood. Mother’s handkerchiefs always smell good. She slowly lift me up so that I could stand.
“Can you walk?” She asked with full worry.
“I’m all right, I can walk” I answered when it’s not entirely the truth. My whole body is aching like hell, It hurts just to move a muscle, but I don’t want to be carried. The truth is my mother is not well. I don’t know what kind of sickness she had, but I know ever since that visit from the hospital all she does was sleep in her room. She only comes out when she needs to go to the bathroom. Father warned me not to disturb her or go inside her room, but once with all my courage I sneaked inside the master bedroom. There lies my mother, pale and barely looks like a human. She had lost so much weight, it’s frightening. I barely recognized my mother anymore.
My mother looks like she’s struggling to walk to. I’m scared. Finally we made it home after what seems to be a hundred years. I opened the door for her and she walked inside. She went to her room and i followed. We were both lucky father was not home yet, I tucked my mother in.
“Please son, let me clean your wounds”
“It’s ok mother, I can do it by myself”
“You’re my good son” She whispered then she slowly close her eyes. I tip toed out of the room as quietly as I can and closed the door. Mother died that night.

12 years later

I waited in front of father’s office. Being in front of his office always mean two things. It’s either I’ve done something wrong or something that’s honorable. I didn’t do anything bad lately so this must be an honorable thing. I felt a huge gust of relief, so i bravely knocked on the door. That small gesture was a small start of a big mistake.
“Come in!” Boomed my father’s voice. I began to hear the anger in my father’s voice and trembled as I come in. I should have waited for a few more minutes. I sat on one of the chairs and stared nervously of what kind of trouble I’m in.
“Son, what is this?” He said, dropping a pile of pictures in front of me as he grabs another cigarette and light it. I stared at the pictures in horror. These are the pictures I took during spring break in Malibu. I begged my father to letting me to go, he let me. What I didn’t tell him is that I went with a certain someone. That certain someone’s name was Otto Cooper. He was tall, handsome and dark skinned. Any girls would swoon for him, and apparently boys too. It was a fun break, hitting the beach and meeting new people. Unfortunately one night, things had gone a bit ... wild. Off course our friend Rupert was there thinking that those intimate moments were a perfect chance for him to practice his photography skills.
“Umm” I froze. I didn’t know what to say so it’s best not to say anything.
“What is the meaning of this? I have taught you better than this! What were you thinking boy? You are a disgrace to this family! No, to this whole country!” My father exploded. I had prepared for the worst. I closed my eyes so that I don’t have to see my own blood, but I didn’t feel a kick, a punch, not even a tiny slap. I dared to open my eyes, my father had moved from his desk to the window, looking out.
“If only Sheryl was here.” He sighed quietly. I had never heard my father spoke of mother ever since the night she-
“I am sending you to the military.”
“Pardon?” I asked.
“I am sending you to the military. You will pay your duty to this country by joining the war that is going on out there. I had spoiled you too much, you need to know how to become a man. You leave tomorrow”

I froze on my seat. What happened next was blurry, all I could remember was watching the scenery changed from office buildings, stores and markets to nothing but sand and hills. I’m in hell. The minute I got out of the vehicle I was already yelled at. I don’t know why they’re calling me a maggot. I’m sure maggots are small creatures that turns to bugs as they got older. It made no sense for me for this big guy with a mustache calling me a premature insect, but I just stood there, filling up my whole body with the hatred I have towards my father. I felt numb.

Senator Janator

Hello everyone! It is a beautiful Monday! Why? NO SCHOOL! YAY! ok anyway just a short post,, i just changed my internet browser from Chrome to Firefox,, for me i love this one better coz somehow it's faster! So people! Use Firefox ;)


My dad is taking my little sister to the doctors, she got spots all over and i think it's chicken pox, and i think im catching some :P

And finally, i am going to change my ipod,, my ipod's broken and the memory is too full so i am getting either the fifth generation or the original one, 160 gigs!! LOL i love the fifth generation's design! It's shiny! Lol.. so ill see, if i have enough money to save,,

Giggle

A look at the world's most disturbing commercials...

Be My Lantern

Hello people of the world of internet,, the reason why im blogging is that i am absolutely bored, i just got back from the mall and even there i was bored. If u had been reading my tweets ull learn that my family is the most uninterested family in the word in other case, boredom is our casualty. Hm hm hm.... lalalala. Ok so ive been listening to quite a lot of music lately.. But everyone knows by the means of that that means usually i listen to different songs of the same artists,, so here r what i usually listen to:
-Nevershoutnever
-The Ready Set
-Romance on a Rocketship
-The Downtown Friction

Lalala so yeah. ive also watched a lot of charlie the unicorn vids on youtube,, lol he's funny n if i ever have friends like his. ill shoot them. seriously. theyre annoying but adorable,, oh n i also downloaded their songs, the banana one n the candy mountain. Lol. Too much freetime in my hands, the benefit of a fast-doer. If u know what i mean. Rawr

Foe

Lol the best parody ever! WHy didn't Bella think of that?? lol.. Anyway i just found a perfect application for those who are confused why the number of followers are decreasing on twitter, click here to see. Psst, u didn't get that from me ;) I was quite shock about the ones who dd, i mean i KNOW these guys and like, wow. I know its just twitter but why do i feel like these guys hate me? Oh well :) Maybe my tweets are too extreme for them to handle, my rule: If u cnt handle once in a while swearing and "offending" truth, then u can NEVER handle the real world kiddies.. no offense

So anyway great news from la la land,,, ADAMS FAMILY TO BE REMADE INTO A STOP MOTION PICTURE DIRECTED BY NON OTHER THAN TIM BURTON!! Can't wait! <33

Twiright Ecripse!

Lol basically a normal reaction. Lol team Jasper FTW!

Carl!!

Love this video! lol. Lamas with hats are just plain awesome.. So my birthday was lask week oh how arkward,, my friends decided to surprise me by ignoring me the whole day and surprised me by coming to my planned dinner with my out of school friends in EX. lol its sweet but i hate being ignored :( hmph. lol I love all the presents i got and i can't say everything here but yea thank u soo much for the ones dat gave me the prezzie and the ones who greeted me :D

Oh and i finally watched Alice! it was quite a disappointment but the effects were amazing and i loved Alice dress during the red kingdom moment.

Oh yeah, i got a tumbr! CLickity click. i dnt update a lot but yeah, see if u want to.

Pig Belly

Who watched alice in wonderland??? I haven't, i was supposed to YESTERDAY but my friend couldn't go, and i was supposed to go TODAY but my fone of my friend had to go out of town so now we're going next week. Grr, can't wait that long!! But for now let's enjoy this original Alice clip from 1902!


Amazing,, lol. I really have a a thing about history, no not the dates and crap, but the old scenario,, i think it looks really cool. And spooky.

So anyway i forgot to tell you guys that i actually finished reading The Catcher in THe Rye the end of the same week that i said i was going to.. it was pretty.... complicated,, well not really the plot is THAT simple its complicated to figure out why somebody would use it as a murder reason... really.

SO now im reading this book:


It's Paper Towns by John Green,, charlieissocoollike recommended me,, not personally but yeah,, thru one of his videos!
i think it has a great plot! And pretty simple YET understandable..
Here it goes:
-Boy meets girl
-Boy best friends with girl
-They grew separated at high school
-GIrl appeared at boy's window, took him for a joy ride
-The 2 went around florida attacking their nemesis
-The next day girl didn't come to school
-Girl went missing for three weeks
-Boy given clues from girl to come find her
-She might did suicide


OK so pretty stoked bout the ending..

Macaroni

happy march everyone! Just a shott post. Im pretty excited bout this month, its march! And its MY MONTH! Ive been hoping for BIG THINGS this month... BIG THINGS. All rite have a great week people!

Childhood

Let's stroll down a lane called memory lane. Childhood is the best.

Fave toy?


Remember hours building crap, and also chocking on them.

Fave food?


Doi, who doesn't love breaking em as a kid? Plus, its fun.


Fave show?


Well, kids lots icky stuff.

Fave crap to wear?


Duh, whoever NEVER wore this as an infant has no childhood at all.

And that's bassically all the stuff i remembered. Oh n i also remembered this kid in my pre school class. His name is Marco and he had long hair and all the girls go crazy over him! Including me, i never know whatever happened to that kid. Lol but it was cute..

Valentines

Happy Valentines you jackass!

Lol. jimmy fallon is the best! Ok valentines is coming and yes i m going to be single. but thats ok coz there's lots of em who r! yay, single on valentines. It doesn't really bother me to be single, s just a date. It doesn't mean anything, Couples r just supposed to b nice to each other that's all! lol

SO yea but if u do have a special someone hope ull have fun with em in Valentines! <333

This Is War

A tshirt war that is!

Amazing! Lol that is the most creative video ive seen on youtube for ages! Love em

BTW. I m going to singapore on the 25th because i am going to check out their design universities. I would graduate at the age of 22, n hopefully will be linked to a job already. I heard graphic designers get payed HIGH.

The Phony Must Die

Said the catcher in the rye

Goal for the weekend: BUY THIS BOOK AND READ IT AGAIN

yea, just watched a scene from the movie Chapter 27, starred by Jared Leto. It was amazing and i really wanna learn more about how the book is related to the motivation for Mark to murder John Lennon. I read this book when i was 13, i didn't really understand but i kept reading it. Until finally i had to return the book to the library, i wanted to borrow it again n finish what i started but never got the chance to. SO now im going to FINALLY FINISH IT!!

The phony must die said the catcher in the rye

Giraffe

really? A giraffe? Lol random vid but yeah. I knw what u guys r thinking about, rnt i supposed to b at school? Well thanks to my friend my flu got worse so now im resting. But im restless, i need to o something. So here i m blogging, chatting wth a friend and watching tv. Sigh things r going well at school, but not so well out of school. Too much drama that i dnt think should be there at the first place, hopefully things will turn out ok.

Oh n when i meant drama, its basically me freaking out. As usual. Over things. That r imaginary. Ok have a nice week!

Snap Snap Snap

I love him! Tho it is impossible for him to love me back in the same way, lol if u know what i mean! ;)

I m sick now, the flu, i got it from a friend who got it from her brother. Damn viruses.

One person is kinda pissing me off right now, idk, its just that things had changed but i don't want to give up our friendship, hope for the best! I dnt like to fight, especially if i had known them for ages! Im not that type of person, unless they did something that is really offending then fuck them, go to hell and so on. But other than that, no. I dnt like leaving friends.

Crackhead

Yeah, that's prob. the best coverage of this whole situation. It was really a HUGE deal for me if you people read my tweets. And i was pretty pissed and was hoping it was all a hoax/ a publicity stunt. I wish. i m still hoping. Long Live The Car Crash Hearts!!!

Some people hate them, me? I never stopped loving them.

FOUND IT!

I found my sweater! Some grade nine students found it and kept it and today i got it back! Thank goodness it wasn't stolen! phew. OK now its time for the

GRAMMY RECAP!

Well the grammy was allrite. Some things which made it cool:

-Lady Gaga & Elton John

-Ringgo Star

-Green Day epic performance

-MJ's tribute

-Michael's kids each have their own words.

Some things that sucked:

-BEP's performance (stupid mike effect made it all messy)

-Justin Bieber (he's just ew)

-Jonas Brothers (EW)

-The last one is that Taylor Swift won beating out Lady Gaga n Beyonce who DESERVED it. She just got more awards ever since the kanye incident, i mean does she really deserve that much all because of that silly incident? Kanye only sed those words coz he is just being dramatic (but its sorta true) and people are sympathizing that? GEEZ. Im gonna repeat my tweet (that rhymes!)

TAYLOR SWIFT DOESN'T DESERVE TO WIN EVERYTHING JUST COZ KANYE DISSED HER!!!

PS. I don't hate her, i actually have some of her songs, its just that some people in the same nomination actually have music more Grammy worthy. Don't get ur shit up people!

Indonesian Junk?

My friend told me in the song "Surrender by Cheap Trick has got this lyric:

Just the other day I heard a soldier falling off
Some Indonesian junk that's going round.

Lol weird but not offending,, coz i found out. What it meant by this guy's comment.

"and the indonesians all made fun of americans for backing out slowly without pleading. calling our soldiers pussies thats the whole indonesian part. and that would be the meaning of surrender. anything else ask me "

Yeah.... not sure bout that one, i wasn't born in the time of the Vietnam war but this is indeed interesting. Ok anyway today at school i lost my fave sweater!! It was gray and i bought it from Zara!! it just disappeared! I know it must be in the classroom because i ddnt really go anywhere, i had it last in lunch in the classroom so it couldn't have gone that far has it?? Karma has a way...

Nexus one the iphone killer?

What do u guys think? Is NEXUS one the new God of the phones? Kicking out iphone?? Well im an iphone owner so for me HELL TO THE NO!!! Iphone still kickass, but now my dad is going to get a nexus n idk whjy it triggs me sooo much that he somehow will get the cooler phone. hmph.

Today is a Sunday and since my mum is a lousy driver and my dad is still in Bali, we are STRANDED, We were supposed to go to Grand Indo to shop for Chinese New Years (idk bout other chinese family but in my family we ALWAYS wear new clothes to welcome the NEW year. Lol)

I wanna dress up nice, only the fact that MOST of my cuz dresses up well i guess u can say "sensible" i have few girl cuz. I have one in sing n i dnt think she's coming.. Grr. Oh and from my dad's sides theyre mostly dress up like ughrrrr nerds? So i wanna be at least the only one that dressed a lil bit, oh idk MODERN?? Lol idk. Hahaha

Ok enough shitting bout my family, i am going to Singapore dis Feb to kno wat have Lasalle got to offer for me, i will also be checking out Raffles coz i heard theyre pretty good too. Hmm ok thats all for now. Ciaooo

Remember me?

Talking to some random guy from melbourne in msn. i hope he's hot ^^

Add me: shrn_pete_1227@hotmail.com

Im kinda feeling guilty right now, my friend left for swiss yesterday and i didn't go to drop her off at the airport with all my friends. I was supposed to, but my mum had to use the car so i cnt go,, hope she understands.. I wrote her a message wishing gud luck in facebook.

Now im going to talk about THE FUTURE!! Oooh ahhh

My original plan was to finish high school and move to Melbourne, btu now i also have a plan to go to this FAMOUS design school in Singapore, which is nearer to my home here so i cna have easy access. It's colled Lasalle. And its world famous. THe problem was Singapore! The people, i don't mean to be racist or rude, but they are very dilligent. I mean DILIGENT! Crazy, they study n study n study. I have a cuz there and she said she's suffering coz there r no HOT GUYS! Imagine being a teenage girl n not having anyone to admire. IT's hell. Thank God Lasalle's international so there are tons of diff people of diff races, i wanna befriend everyone , not just of my own race. My dream is to have multinational friends.. That'll b cool..

The Future is confusingggg

GLEE Review

Ok it has been exactly two weeks since Glee came out in Asia n im sooo sorry for not fulfilling my promise to review it here. Ok i kno most of the guys are not really into glee so i guess this is for the girls. I LOVEEEEEE glee! it's probably the best show that ever come across in Asia! Im glad they air it and it's all sooo different and unique. And the characters are pretty odd in a good way! LOVE LOVE LOVE GLEE! And i recommend to anyone!!!

PS. Love Kurt!!! Hottes Gay EVARR! (lol parody-ing RWJ)

High Above Me

hello hello hello

Just came back from a shopping trip with the girls in my class. And it's TIRING. Damnit, i only got one simple mini skirt while my friend burned her money. She even borrowed my debit card for a pair of Stilettos ! lol. (tho they r pretty cute) Ok enough girly talks, let's talk music!

I was roaming around Purevolume and I found:

Picture Me Broken

Their sound is alternative, rock n emo. Tho im not sure wat emo music is.. Well anyway they are really cool and have a great sound, not to mention FREE DOWNLOADS! (PS killer guitar!!)

http://www.purevolume.com/picturemebroken

Hey youtube's also got musicians! Check out this Brittish hottie, Charlie McDonald.

Im actually a HUGE ass fan since last year and I think i posted the pimple song here.,, If not go to his youtube :

http://www.youtube.com/user/charlieissocoollike

That is all for today. Blog agen some other time..

PS. Tomm is my friend's last day here. Hope she enjoy her time studying in Swiss (and meet hot guys!!) Good luck Key! :))

Sing The Blues

Hello everybody, this is going to be a short post. Im going again after this for sum dinner, btw supposed to be doing my art painting but FAARR too lazy to do anything. lol but blog. There has been a lot of Tweets about giving back to Haiti, which is pretty cool! Help Haiti! <3 OK im pretty much dun, so yeah. Peace n love!

Rainy

It was raining just now but it stopped. Ok, It's SUNDAY. Laziest of all. I just had to cope with the fact that tomorrow's MONDAAYYYY. total mood breaker. Ok this guy was the last person i subbed to on youtube, and the guy's a genius! I watched his vids like a long time ago but ddnt even bother to subb. But nw i dd n he is awesome!

Also i haven't blog about music much, so here's one for u.

ROMANCE ON A ROCKETSHIP

If u guys haven't heard from him, he's this AMAZING solo musician and he's kinda the same as Christopher Drew and The Ready Set, ok just combine the two and u got him. Except his hair is not those kinda hair, its unique, it's weird and i love it! <333

My fave song is Miss Magazine and Skin & Bones

N if ure one of those peeps that like soft music, ull like his duet : A Million Kisses. It's really sweet, if ure a girl ready to sway. That's all for now, enjoy the rest of ur Sunday wherever u kids are.